Monday, January 10, 2011
its some unexplainable feeling and i cannot concentrate on my report now. though its very easy to write and finish it. somehow i just cannot concentrate. my mind is in a whirl.
ahgong i miss you so much. it feels different. it really does. i cannot adapt to it. the smile keeps appearing in my head. the words keep repeating in my head. i feel regret as well. many many. seeing it goes in is even worse. forever untouch anymore. the grasp. i should have held longer.
everything has to go on. i know everyone feels something different inside. just nobody says it. i dont know why. i cannot move on. we may not feel anything the first few days even till the day before. however on the day itself. everything seems different. of course im not the one who will feel the worse. nothing can be compared to any of the elders. a person may not be important to you but when that person does not exist anymore. im sure you will regret it moreover ahgong is so precious to us. im so scared of death. not for myself. but for someone dear to me. i cannot accept the fact.
5:55 PM
