Saturday, February 6, 2010
ok some update on working. wells. its been busy the past 3 months or so. had 2 major events considering major since im new. and its tiring!! lol finally get a rest yet not cause still have post events. haha and new year is round the corner!!
not as excited as i were in the past. haha cause we have grown up!! yes that it is. haha just visiting relatives whom we have not met for so long and only meet during new year. haha
ok work is tiring. i want to go back studying!! however i dont know if i have the money to study anot. how?! should i continue studying or should i just go out to work?! with this diploma. its definitely not enough. so what should i do man?! hmm study or work?!
oh wells. after reading someone's blog. i hope i have made a right choice. even though making a wrong choice. we can always amend it. however i really do hope that it is the right choice. i dont want to have a chance to reconsider this decision. i hope it will really work. its not only on my part to make me not think that i have made a wrong choice. so if i have put in effort. i think thats fine. i cannot control what others think or do. i only can do my part in saving this.
im really tired of hearing the nags. who can help?! hmm have said alot of times. i dont know. is pampering a bad choice?! im not pampering. probably just that i dont dare to say. dont dare to lose it. thats why i dont dare to do anything. just let it happen as it wishes. its not within my control anymore (anyone can sees this). what should i do?! im a little paranoid now. I DONT WANT TO MAKE A WRONG DECISION!! thats what concerns me. I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO ASK ME WHETHER I HAVE MADE A WRONG DECISION ANOT. i trust my own judgement. but is he helping?! HAI
its not that i want to complain or what. but. can you get what i want?! can you support me?! can you be like what a normal person is supporting and giving someone?!
its not that i dont get this and people get this i want to complain. but i thought maybe some things are just basic needs.
maybe its just my own thinking. if you dont think it is. then its ok.
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